A Game I Will Never Win

People just spend their days, sitting and killing.
So desensitized.
I used to think, "There is no way this makes sense."
Killing zombies.
But there they are,
Sitting cross legged and playing Xbox.
Somethings are just meaningless.
The truth is, this just helps people not to feel.
Some people do this in life.
They never feel.
They spend all their life trying not to feel anything.
But everyone feels.
There is just something that happens to someone..
Something that makes them change inside; makes them want to feel nothing.

The beginning gamer: jumps, winces at the sight of their first kill, and squirms as they play.
Spectators laugh. But they don't know.
 They have never had to kill.

Eventually, the more and more the gamer plays, the less they feel.
The less connected they are.
Sometimes this happens in life too.
You have felt too much pain; seen too much life.
You feel like life is a movie and your just seeing it all unfold through someone's eyes, not your own.

There is nothing you can do but let your life slip away.
You feel as if your heart has become desensitize to love.
You feel as if your hands have become desensitized to touch.
Your eyes have become desensitized to the feeling of tears falling down your face,
They mean absolutely nothing.
It is all so unnecessary, just like playing a video game.
A game I will never win.